Hypocritic During the summer of 2004, I moved to L.A. to scope out the film and televion industry. One of my good friends from high school studies at USC, psychology. Recently, he has been interested in classes dealing with sexuality, and the GLBT experience. Mainly, queer theory. Well, this was the summer of the Bush administration, Farenheit 9/11 and all the controversy over gay marriage.

One time, we got into a heated arguement about queer theory. To be honest, I am one of those traditional values people, somebody who's looking for that special someone to share the rest of my life with. The "heterosexual dream" if you will. Granted, I supported gay marriage, but I was not necessarily a person that thought of marriage as the be all and end all of life. I felt that we should be able to choose whether we wanted to get married to our significant others, even if it mean of the same sex. My friend, on the other hand, felt that gay marriage was wrong. Granted, I understood where he was coming from, all that stuff about trying to equate queer sexuality with that of a heterosexual relationship was detrimental to gay rights, but it was something that I felt could help with gay rights. Anyway, I don't want to get into all of that right now. What really ticked me off was that he started attacking me for having this "ideal" of only one partner that I wanted to spend my life with and no other.

During this arguement, he called me a coward for not coming out to my parents sooner, not expicitly telling my dad that I was gay, and attacked my choice of profession. There were more personal attacks, but I don't want to list them all here, and would rather not visit them again. To cut a long story short, I was distraught hearing the hurtful words coming from the mouth of what I would say was my "best friend". While I was driving that day, arguing with him on the cellphone, I started crying uncontrollably and almost got into a car accident had I not parked to the side of the road. That day, I told him that I did not want to talk to him anymore.

It's been nearly five months now, and the other day, I stumbled onto his livejournal website. Usually he writes in english, but just after I stopped talking to him, he started a new blog written in Chinese, that I don't fully understand. Lo and behold, I find out that he's fallen head over heels with a guy named Josh, whom he met when he went to Taiwan. He brought him along for a vacation with his mom and on his livejournal, he writes endless poems about undying love, until death do us part and "you're the only one". As a parting gift, because he had to leave Taiwan to go back to L.A., he bought Josh matching rings, both engraved with their nicknames so that in the future, "they will always remember that time they had together" and that their "bond will never be broken/forgotten". There are even post-coital pictures on the livejournal.

I just cant' believe that he said all that shit, and brought me down and guess who's been bitten by the love bug. What an asshole. What a hypocrite. I hope he gets his heart broken badly.

I deserve an apology for the hateful and mean things he said. But I am not going to grovel. My care for this "friend" has officially ended, I am never going to read or hear anything about him again. No sympathy.

*I know it's an angry post, but I needed to vent*

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