A bit of background: Recently, I celebrated my 22 birthday. Graduated from college in May 2004, but currently unemployed. I am a gay male, but I have never had sexual relations with another person, not even a kiss. During high school, I was overweight, topping out at about 220 pounds. In the past four years, I have tried to turn my life around; eating right and working out to reach a weight of 160 pounds. A lot of my issues that I am working on have to deal with my body, my self esteem and my sexuality. I still have some ways to go, but hopefully, I can use this tool as a means to that end.

Reading what I have written, it sounds like I am a social retard. Think what you want, but don't feel sorry for me or even pity me. I have decent group of beautiful friends and family who I feel comfortable and feel at home with. I am truly blessed in other aspects of life, for which I am eternally grateful.

Hopefully, what I would like to achieve from this is to establish a sort of communication with the world (or just the abyss of the internet) in terms of my sexuality. Share my personal stories, triumphs, and struggles with others who are facing the same things as I am.

With all that's going on in the world, it seems to be a selfish endeavour, but it's a personal crisis that has caused me great pain and agony over the past few years. If I am stuck at this hurdle, I am not able to go out and pursue my real passion nor do any good in this world.

In the meantime, I am striving to be candid, exposed, raw and truthful about my life. All I can give right now is just to be real.  ¶ 10:53 AM 5 comments

  Why this? A couple of months back, I stumbled onto the world of blogging and got a kick out of reading about other people's lives. Then, I started to write my own, but discovered that because I had given my friends access to the site, I couldn't write whatever I wanted. A lot of the time, the subjects I wrote about were shallow, stupid and ultimately boring. Originally, I had started to the project in an effort to face some of my demons, but in the end, I retreated back into my own shell.

This is a new start. I have created a certain degree of anonymity for myself so that I can use this forum to try and open up to the world. And so, here I begin...  ¶ 10:48 AM 2 comments