Back into the shell I think that at this point, I want to retreat back into my shell. Back into my comfortable old ways where I had time to read my magazines, read books, brush up on pop culture. All the stuff that I liked to do by myself and not having to rely on someone.

I don't know. it's kind of difficult to want to be with someone when all you really want to do is be with yourself. Are some people just destined to love their own company and not have to rely on someone else?

I see people who are perpetually in relationships and i'm jealous of them. But at the same time, I am happy being by myself. Going out by myself and shopping by myself. i like to do things by myself. Is that such a bad thing? Is life really about relationships or can it be just about enjoying yourself?  ¶ 11:15 PM