Don't Want to See Him Anymore So after my first sexual experience. Two in total, I don't want to see him anymore. I'm interested in the sex yes, but I've decided that I am not the person that will just give it to anybody, which is what I have done now. I feel a certain remorse that I did not have sex the first time with somebody that I REALLY like and could fathom spending some substantial amount of time with, but at the same time, at the age of 23 almost hitting 24, it was dumb and futile to try and extend my virginal life. Besides, I don't want to have sex with somebody that I really liked and not know anything. It would make me feel stupid.

But, in terms of kissing him, I am just not turned on by him. Sure, after a while of kissing, I have a hard on, but I just do not feel any sparks fly when I kiss him. It's almost cold. His lips feel cold, not warm when I kiss him. It is very nice to hold him though.

Anyway, hopefully, something substantial will come along in the future and i will be able to experience TRUE LOVE.

Saying that, I will probably not have sex for the longest time. And truth be told, I might not actually miss it. LOL  ¶ 11:04 PM